For Months

I have struggled with many issues at hand, my health, my family, and others. I know you have led me where I needed to go and I know I haven't always followed. That is where I was wrong. Hopefully, I have now allowed You to light my path again. I will not have to find my way in the dark.

Thrown Into A Shock

June 2009.....This day was a shock for the whole family. My 24 year old cousin Jason was diagnosed with Leukemia. I prayed to You everyday: for You to place Your healing hands upon his body and take that dreadful poison out of him. I prayed merely to help fight the battle he had in front of him. On November 6, 2009, Jason received a Stem Cell transplant, that was given by his sister Ashlee. She was a perfect match to him. This transplant made Jason 100% leukemia free. Unfortunately we lost Jason On January 20, 2009 to Graph vs Host Disease. He had a horrible journey, before he met his Savior, I know he is with You. He allowed You to guide him through his journey. He was a fighter to the end. I dare not, to ask why? I know we should never ask You why. But sometimes it is so hard to understand. I also know that we here on earth are not supposed to understand all of Your work. Only You know Your Plan.

He Heals.

My grandmother(mama), had to undergo major surgery. She was 77 years old at the time, very weak and fragile. By God's Grace she is ok. Today she is at home with me and my children. I know my prayer were answered, that she pull through this. But I also know that her work here on earth isn't finished. By Your Grace, may she have a whole lot more work to do.

On My Knees, Praying

March 23, 2009....This is the day I will never ever forget. My dad collapsed at home due to medical problems. I arrived at his house and he was unconscious and not responding. I went off the deep end at that point. I hit my knees and began rocking back and forth praying to my God. After I finished praying, I went to my daddy and called out to him, "Daddy, can you hear me?" As I said this I was rubbing his arm and holding his hand. He looked at me, and that was a slight sigh of relief. I asked, Daddy are you hurting anywhere?" He mumbled in a weak voice, "no". Daddy had been sick for several weeks. He was in constant pain and could not bear to eat. But for that brief moment he was pain free. This was Gods way of allowing Daddy to have some last pain free hours. Daddy passed the next day due to internal bleeding. That was the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with. I will tell you and I am so glad that God was in my life. If it had not been for HIM, I would have never been able to cope with the loss of my Daddy.
My daddy was the only person I could talk to about anything. He related to almost everything that I endured and could not figure out on my own. Still to this day I think of picking up the phone to call him, when something is bothering me. But I know that with God's help he answers me all the time. Cause I know God listens to me now and has always listened. I was just too blind to see that. I know that my daddy is with God. No doubt about it and I will see him again. God loves me...all the time.

Touched by HIS hands

March 1, 2009.....As we sat in church listen to the sermon that was being given. Something came over me. At that moment I asked God to come into my life. As I sat there listening, I cried during the whole service. When we left Mount Pleasant Baptist Church that afternoon with my eyes swollen and nose reddened from the tissue I was using, I knew that God was with me...I knew because I felt His embrace. The embrace that you know is loving and forgiving. This day changed my life. From that moment I have used Him for support. I will share some of the most venerable times of life with you a little later. Just to show everyone just how much He can come into your life as He did mine. You will never feel as much love and understanding from anyone, like you will at that moment.

My Intention

This is is my very first entry in my blog. When I first started this blog, I had full intentions of using it for my family tree: to see how much it has grown over the years. Now,I have decided to use it for a whole different reason. I have decided to use it to help me GROW. To show the progress of my life since March 1, 2009.